I didn’t think this would find me again. Those damned mini heart spasms that take your breath away and hitch your throat. She’s driving me crazy. But I enjoy every minute of it. Oh god, I don’t mean to feel this way. I feel like I’m just being silly. She makes me …. ahshshhsvscefwgwhanavcasjxkpscwwbsvusndcecabscshsbd. Guh. Why must this be so complicated?!
I did it again.
stop falling for her. -.Thonk.- Stop falling for her. -.Thonk.- STOP falling for her. -.Thonk.- STOP FALLING for her. -.Thonk.- STOP FALLING FOR her. -.Thonk.- STOP FALLING FOR HER. -.Thonk.- ADFJHSKJDGFAZDFKJASHDKLJFHSDF. GUH.
Am I seriously doomed to be the one you run to everytime something goes wrong? You push me away every single fucking time I try to make it work with you. Itfeelslikeyou’rewithmejustwhenit’sconvenient. Onandofffor3fuckingyearsnow. Whatthefuck. You make my heart ache and beat at the same fucking time. You frustrate me so much. But WHY can’t I just leave you alone?! God, girl....
Stop trying to crawl into my thoughts and just let me sleep. Go away. I don’t trust you near my heart anymore. I don’t trust many of you anymore. Just three people. And one, I am still unsure about. In fact; I just trust two people. The other is pending.